Enid: Halleloo I’m back bitches!

Nothing very much has changed since I posted last! I have forgotten our Twitter password and I’m taking advantage of that to just…make a break for it. I really hope that you are doing okay.

I was inspired to write because I had a fun dream about humiliation where I was lying on my stomach and trying to write on something, and Cadi was standing over me with her foot on my shoulder. She was kicking my elbow and shoulder blades and mocking the fact that I couldn’t write properly! I’m very vain about my handwriting so it was an effective humiliation. Good job subconscious.

My sex drive has really plummeted over the last couple of months. I just haven’t seen the point in it, or in anything. And I’ve felt very…hrm…this is the second Peep Show reference I’ve made but it’s very much like the bit when Mark gets mugged and Jez tries to take his parsley, and Mark tells him to fuck off. I’ve just wanted to be left alone.

In this respect, BDSM and power exchange has been an important part of staying connected and staying sane. Nothing much has changed since my last post about power exchange during a pandemic, but we have tweaked a few things. Doing an exciting and different lunch every day at “Baby’s cafe” was too much pressure while also working in the days, and I asked Cadi to take over lunch at least once a week. We’re still very settled in a Mama/little girl dynamic and it is really working right now. We’ve been wild swimming a lot, and that has probably been the best bit of this summer, especially when she can pick me up and spin me around in the water, and when I can show her how to best jump into the waves so they carry you along.

The other day I got five packets of my favourite unicorn stickers because of how good I was.

Me playing in the garden while Mama uses me as a footstool.

I’m missing being in LGBTQ spaces so much. We’re lucky in that most of our friends are queer and we’ve been able to see them often and do socially distant picnics etc, but I’m fucking dying for a good night out in a gay bar. We’ve been dialling in to an online queer ‘house party’, and watching digital drag shows, and that has somewhat filled the hole.

In this post I wrote about how I was really interested in the idea of having sex over Skype/Zoom with another couple or couple(s), and that’s something that we’ve been able to do over the last couple of months! I’ll probably blog about that separately, but that was actually really fun.

Later on this week we are going to be joining in with the Queerope shibari conference for LGBT people + women. Really looking forward to it, as it was going to be held at Karada House in Germany. We attended a workshop there last summer and really enjoyed it, I only wish that circumstances were better and that Karada House could run the conference as intended. We’ve signed up for Thursday, as we want to attend the sessions on suspending larger bodies, tying in an accessible way, and using ropes in a sadomasochistic way. It’s going to be so exciting to hear from so many experienced practitioners and also be in a space with hot! kinky! queers!

Unfortunately we’re not able to take the whole afternoon off to join in, so we’ll be joining the evening sessions live and watching the others at a later date (you can watch them for 30 days, which is a really sweet deal!)

There are so many other interesting sessions on different days; I particularly like the sound of the one on disrupting the beautiful/grotesque binary through “empathetic witnessing”, and the one on “choosing your own adventure” for bottoms. Now I’ve looked those up I’ve seen that they’re both delivered by the same teacher, Ceci Ferox! I am now going to go and check out more of her work!

Last night to warm up for the conference we tried this hip tie, which turned out pretty cute. Cadi tied over my clothes because I was chilly, and then stood back and laughed at me while I was trying to wriggle back out of them without removing the tie! I also enjoy that I’m wearing my beloved and paint-flecked, “Do more of what makes you happy” t-shirt. Kink definitely makes me happy.

She also took some cute snaps of me:

Hope you enjoyed my fat puss in the last one. As the icon Princess Nokia once said, “Little titties and a fat kitty”

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